It has been a little while since I’ve updated my blog and I think its high time I did a little catching up. In doing so I think its also time I share something that might be obvious to some of and it might not, and that is that I’ve been fighting depression for a very long time and only recently have started to come to terms with it enough that I am getting help. It has not been easy. There are days when life feels really dark and loving myself seems absolutely impossible. This has effected my work for years and its time for me to do something about it…for me!
Why am I sharing this? Because in the short time I have been in the Community Music program, all of you have been such a positive energy in my life. I come away from classes feeling like I am somebody with something to offer. There have been times when I walk in I feeling like absolute crap, but by the time I leave, I feel better and just a little more confident. These times together are truly one of the highlights of my week and I am so grateful to everyone of you for the kindness and support you show towards me. I have a long journey ahead of me, but I’m starting to believe I’m worth it.
If there is anything that I am learning from community music it is this: what we do as musicians has a tremendous impact on the world around us. As a community we are not only shaping ourselves, we are shaping each other.
Thank-you from the bottom of my heart.
Mark